{the culling}: Archive

Still around but I don't have much to say.

Feb 27th

Here I am

Sitting upstairs at my desk when I should be on the bus to class. I can easily justify skipping this class because it is only one class. I’m in a funk, and I don’t exactly know how I got there. I think I can piece together many tiny things; no friends, family lives far away, my mom’s complete denial and utter lack of respect towards my relationship with Sara. I think that...

Feb 18th

Feb 13th

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Feb 12th

1 note

crunch time

I realize that it’s getting closer and closer to crunch time. I need to figure out what I want to do and just do it. I don’t want to wrack up crazy loans, and I also don’t want to work myself to death and not enjoy my life. I might just take the path to where I get into a career that caps around $40-50k a year and call it quits. I just want to do the things I want to do, and...

Feb 11th

Sick

I hate the prelude of getting sick. I think it’s worse than just being sick. You experience each symptom, and it seems like it’s intense and hyper-blown out. When your head hurts, it’s pounding in pain. When you breath, your throat aches even more than just not breathing. Every time I swallow it hurts, so I try not to swallow. My bones and muscles hurt. My fucking eyelids...

Feb 11th

enjoying a 4 day weekend

and recovering from the side effects of going off one medication and getting on another.

Feb 9th

Feb 7th

Feb 4th

1 tag

I only ever sing for you.

Feb 4th

1 tag

Watching white guys get uncomfortable as the professor talks about rich white men’s privileges and them being oppressors is… awesome.

Feb 4th

2 tags

Feb 3rd

1 tag

Feb 3rd

I struggle with the fact

that I am not the norm and that the system and rules somehow skip over me. It angers me to sit in class and know that there are at least a handful of people who truly think I don’t deserve the same kind of rights as they do. I become bitter and angry because of how that makes me feel. I want to be part of the world that would celebrate the same things I do, just like everyone, but instead...

Feb 3rd